The Special Apologies to YOU

the world is changing
the society is changing
the people around me are changing
the only thing that doesn't change is you


friendship is important
but you're important to me
you're really are
it's just because of my selfishness
it's just because i can't get used to it


I'm really sorry for what happened in the past few days
I'm sorry that I've been the selfish one
I'm sorry that I'm still not used to reveal my problems
I'm sorry to just dump your work aside
I'm sorry that I just gave up just like that


I hope we can just remain what we should be
I hope that you can forgive me of my selfishness
I'm sorry

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164 DAYS

说好的幸福呢 - 周杰伦

你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
伴你断断续续唱着歌 假装没事了


时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了


怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍 那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得


你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢


Repeat x2

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得

你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

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163 DAYS

151008 PDLS Charity Bazaar @ KDU - Part 1

I'm finally updating the captures of the

charity bazaar on 15th October 2008
This charity bazaar is joined by
all students who take the the subject
(PDLS - Personal Development and Leadership Skills)


DJ entertaining songs + PS Games + Wii
Stalls built up by the members of "the black T-shirts"


The PS2 Game Stall on the day
Pay RM2 for 3 hours
Right behind there are 2 stalls nearby the cafeteria entrance
a spaghetti stall and also a stall selling sushi


The steaming corn making you hungry???
Grab one then...
Alan - the chef of the day


Want some yummy corn???
"1 for RM3 - 3 for RM5"


The back view of my stall...
May Lee & Alan busy serving
Saw the crowds on that day???

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163 DAYS

Thank You Very Much !!!

りささん
お元気ですか
私がやっている台湾でも期待している
私には非常に限られたジェイチョウのニューアルバムを
送信していただきありがとうございます
私はあなたと私には彼のアルバムを買うにも署名の
取得に時間を費やすほどよろしくお願いいたします
どうもありがとう
あなたがいなくて寂しいです
またお借りがある
私は再び我々の再会しているときに
4バックを支払うことになる



私のかわいい弟するには
私は神に感謝したい。
あなたの人生を節約するために
私は神に感謝したい。
私の横にある場合に戻すため
私は神に感謝したい。
あなたのためすべてを犠牲に
あなた、私はもう心配がないことを期待する
私は本当に私の愛する兄弟としてゆるいすることはできません



To my dear michy
thanks for accompanying me
in this few days
thanks for helping me
on the attendance yesterday
thanks for being my listener
yesterday night for about 30 minutes
don't worry about me
my brother has overcome the dangerous stage
don't worry about me
i had my own decision in my relationship stuff

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163 DAYS

Can I Just Give Up My Life ???

i know it's really stupid
if i say i wana end my life just like that
seriously
im really tired of the surroundings
im really tired of the life that im facing
i just wana give up my life



i've try my best
trying to overcome all the obstacles
i've try my best
trying to suite your needs to help you more than i can
i've try my best
trying to speak up in order to cut down the problem
i've try my best
not to come out with troubles and burdens
im trying to forget everything that happened every day
i have tried thinking of giving up in you
i have tried to tell myself that i can't just leave
it's all because you're important
it's all because i've fallen deep into it



i am disappointed
when the moment or the minute
i needed you
you're far away from me
but
i don't mean to force you
i don't mean to hurt you
seriously
made me wanted to give up
made me wanted to just remain my single life
made me wanted to just stay as how i should be



what i can feel
it's just a communication problem
it's just the communication barrier in us
all i hope is just to cut this down
all that i hope
we can just remain what we should be



i just felt that sometimes
im just kinda selfish
i just feel that sometimes
im just kinda overdoing
i just feel that sometimes
im kinda useless in solving problems



i just hope to overcome all these problems
i just hope to forget all the sad moments
i just hope to bring up my own life
to a better place and to make it more meaningful
changes always occur
wherever and whenever i am
maybe im just not the perfect one
i'll just choose to give up in my own life
i'll just choose to make it worse

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162 DAYS

Broga Camp

At last im back to my home sweet home after the 2 days 1 night leadership camp. Although it isn't my first trip to this kind of leadership camp, i kinda enjoyed all the activities being organised. This Broga Camp is officially organised by the KDU's Campus Friend's society, but it is one of our PDLS (Personal Developement and Leadership skills) assessment camp, which consists of 25% marks.

Broga Camp is located in the boundary of Melaka and Negeri Sembilan. The activities that's organized by KDU Campus Friends were pond rafting, flying fox, high rope, obstacle course and jungle trekking. I will update more about the camp, photos will be uploaded after 20th October.

Sign off for slumber... tired... zzzzZZZZZZ....


p/s : Many of my friends complaining of muscles aching... I guess I'm the lucky one who does not have this problem... :D


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160 DAYS

Away for 1 day Plus...

As a part of the
Personal Development & Leadership Skill's syllabus
Encompassing of 25% marks of the total mark
A compulsory of this leadership camp
will have to be participated by all students
at
BROGA CAMP, Semenyih


Uncategorize Myself
will be in sleeping mode for
a day half
till im back to write a report
and upload some photos...

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158 DAYS

Tired.... Just Wana Give Up In Everything..

days have been bringing me all along
bringing me into the month of October
always told myself
not to look backwards
always challenge myself forward



October has been just a busy month
assignments and events
one after another
the disappointment, the stress, the incorporation
just sickening me
i've just handed in 2 assignments
many more to go
many more to think about
many more to be done


im really tired
im really very exhausted
who am i sacrificing for
what am i sacrificing for
sacrificing for my love ones
sacrificing for my friends
sacrificing for my classmates



i just wish that i can give up in everything
i just wish that i can put away everything
i just wish that i can stay away from everything
i just wish i can leave from this place
i just wish to survive in another place


tired
disappointed
exhausted

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156 DAYS

《魔杰座》 - " CAPRICON "

Apologising that I have to post this in MANDARIN ...

周杰倫2008全新專輯 魔杰座 10/15發行

2008年，美索不達米亞的牧羊人，在浩瀚星空中，
又發現了一個全新的星座…【魔杰座】。
【魔杰座】周杰倫 2008最新杰作
魔術杰倫 音樂無界
眼睛看到的不一定是真的 用音樂卻看見更多想像
超乎感動全新杰作，讓愛音樂的人重新誕生，重新歸類！

<魔杰座的由來>

魔 杰座，代表的是音樂與魔術的星座，杰倫變魔術，讓音樂變幻無窮，讓不可能的想像成真；原本屬於摩羯座的周杰倫，以音符和創意，變出星空中的新星座【魔杰 座】，這個令星座專家摸不透的神秘新星座，形狀有時是撲克牌上的騎士，有時又變成鬼牌上的小丑，變幻不同的形體和曲風，就好像魔術師的幻術，炫目神迷，定 住所有目光，魔杰座要讓所有的不可能都變可能！
超乎感動的全新杰作，在這裡可以找到失落的夢想、希望、創意與感動，讓愛音樂的人重新誕生，重新歸類自己的星座！

<首波溫暖杰作> 「稻香｣

溫馨勵志的「稻香｣ 回到最初的美好

記憶中的「稻香｣迎面徐徐吹來，從蟋蟀聲中，勾起遙遠的記憶，那是一種叫做童年的感覺。
周 杰倫填詞作曲的「稻香｣，是一首嘻哈民謠搭配周式饒舌曲風，描述現代都市人對社會、生活的壓力過重，開始嚮往鄉下樸實的生活，回到最初的美好；在前奏的蟋 蟀聲之後，開頭第一段就唱著：

「對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨 跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走 為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落｣，

杰倫直率有力的問著，有如當頭棒喝，反問自己是不是早以抱怨代替了感激；

「請你打開電視看看 多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去 我們是不是該知足 珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有｣，

天災人禍頻傳的現在，當電視裡播放著被埋在土堆裡十幾個小時的人被救出的畫面，或是災民們努力重建家園的景象，原始的求生能力，是人類最 珍貴的力量，生命正發出強大的訊號，每個人都應該聽聽心裡的聲音，知足珍惜眼前的一切，周杰倫唱出了這個最簡單的道理，卻也是最容易被蒙蔽忽略的道理：知 足。

接著杰倫帶我們回到鄉下，打赤腳在田裡奔跑、偷摘水果的玩樂嘻鬧聲，無憂無慮的童年，這樣的記憶，恐怕是現在很多都市小孩所沒有的，安親班取 代了田埂果園，而喇叭聲讓蟲鳴消失了。大人的世界逐漸侵襲小孩的世界，抱怨、沮喪、謾罵，讓大家忘記了最初的美好，

「不要這麼容易就想放棄 就像我說的 追不到的夢想 換個夢不就得了 笑一個吧 功成名就不是目的 讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義｣在紛亂騷動的現在，聽這首周式療傷嘻哈民謠風的「稻香｣，

一起回歸心靈的自然，追尋最樸實最真誠的感動。周杰倫用最單純的音 色與音符，沒有矯飾的文字，直接有力的為大家加油打氣，努力過生活，知足最快樂！



http://mojim.com/tw095127.htm

http://www.kzzj023.com/news/Article.asp?ArticleID=219185

http://ent.sina.com.cn/y/2008-10-10/00502199203.shtml

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154 DAYS

~~~~**@** WTF !!! **@**~~~~

i have to drive myself to college again

anyway, I can't imagine myself
going into KDU's car park
at about 2:40pm
the car park was really (x2) full
as maybe the entrance of the car park
was being opened by the guard


okay i guess im the lucky one to get a space
at the top floor inner parking space
as this lecturer was on her way out


** 1st Agenda **


while waiting patiently for the space
what michy and i were really shocked
to see was the parking skills
of the neighbour car's driver had
troubled the lecturer had to enter her car
from the other side of the door
(which is the other side of the driver's door)
okay... i don't wana blame this driver
maybe he or she is really still a "P" license
but
this really made me scared to reverse my car into the space
and i wanted to give up in parking into that space


** really forgotten to capture pictures of this 1st agenda **


luckily i was "smart" **ehem** enough
to park into the space
such small space !!!
it took me about 3 minutes... :P
which ended up Michy had to come out
from the driver's door.
not to blame my parking skills
this is because
the neighbour's car really parked till
the whole car crossed the other parking space's line


** 2nd Agenda **


after Malaysian Studies at about 4:10pm
while heading to my car with michy
another driver who didn't park the car properly
same thing happened again
this time is not a "P" license driver


view the photos below
and you will understand what i mean
by "bad" parking skills


This is the neighbour's car parking skills
Although the two spaces is located at a turning
but.... sigh....
See it ??? Now you know what do I mean by bad parking skills ???


This is how I have to park my car just because of that "driver"
That is why Michy couldn't come out from the door


Saw the distance between ???
I have only a choice to park to keep to one side
so that we could come out from the car...

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151 DAYS

How Do You Explain This ???

I've managed to get one question which goes ------>

Choose ONE of the quotation below. First, state whether you think this saying is true; then use an example from your own or others' experience to support your view. Write about your example in one paragraph

The question QUOTE is :
" This thing called 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down. " ~ Mary Pickford


While figuring out the meaning off it, I met Satish online... and this is what he explained to me :

(9:25 PM) Satish Sran:	d meaning is
(9:28 PM) Satish Sran:	falling down is biasa....coz when u fall, u suppose 2 get up & retry by putting in more effort....so not really failure but, but if u fall..& stay down, without getting up , retring & working harder..den ur a real failure like badawi now i say he real failure n chicken
(9:28 PM) Satish Sran:	5 years ago he promised so much...n fell down

(9:30 PM) Satish Sran:	when given d chance 2 decide whether 2 stay on or resign in 5 months...he chooses 2 resign in 5 months...so he fell down, & stayed down...without even putting up a fight 4 najib who is not on good terms wit badawi

Next, when Raymond came online... I showed him what Satish has said

This is what he said...

(9:41 PM) Raymond:	lol everytime also relate with politics

(9:47 PM) Raymond:	hmmm how bout explaining the meaning of staying n falling?
(9:47 PM) Raymond:	i mean if fall u can get back up if stay... u know la... will juz stay there won't get back up
(9:47 PM) Raymond:	that's failure

Anyway, thanks guys... I guess without better explanation... I can't finish my portfolio....

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151 DAYS

Life After the Mid Break

It's time to be back to work
tutorials, portfolios & assignments
one big stack
waiting for me to complete
everything is gonna due
on the 12th to 17th October
that whole particular week


mid-term break
quiet, frigid, disappointed, bored
lots of friends are away from town
some were busy in preparing and celebrating Raya (Eid)
some were preparing for important exams
ended up most of the time
i spend my time visiting my foster brother in the hospital
i spend my time at home
i spend my time accompanying lots of people
that's how i've spent my mid-term break


i guess it's time to tell myself
i've found the previous me
i'm back to the previous me


recently
i'm again involved in writing
modern poems, short stories, novels
i'm again back to the normal one
who likes reading
wherever i go
there will be a book with me


now i'm changing tremendously
becoming the one
that is known by everybody in history
i really hope that all this changes
bring me a new hope
and
the passion to complete everything





~ Follow Dreams ~

Follow the route of dreams

Wherever dreams bring you to

Don't let anxious stand in you

Try not looking backwards

Always challenge yourself forward

Live with happiness

Live every second, every minute

To the maximum

Believe in yourself

You have the ability

To embrace life with enthusiasm

Believe in yourself

You have the energy

To overcome all burdens

Don't set your target or sights too high

Go and follow as dreams bring you along

You will be surprised

Of what you have succeeded

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148 DAYS

Words to Support My Friend - Jia Yi a.k.a Coco

To Jia Yi a.k.a Coco
and
friends out there


planned to quit on
something you wish to complete
or
some final important decisions


Here are some words
for encouragement
and
the support...



~ NEVER QUIT ~

always believe in yourself
try to do what you're comfortable with
and
what you love to do

follow your objectives
follow your vision and mission
follow your future plans

give the best to yourself
every second
every minute
every day

laugh to be happy
love yourself
because love and to be loved

keep yourself
alive in all actions
despite challenges and burdens

while you're on the journey
don't be afraid of changes
don't be afraid of difficulties
walk on and learn as the journey moves

always move ahead
with courage
with confidence
with dignity

always continue to walk on
to challenge yourself
with the impossibilities
to risk yourself
to the maximum
chances and opportunities

NEVER QUIT
until you succeed
until you win
because future is endless

you have the spirit
you have the extraordinary
within you

nurture it
with hope and passion
embrace it
with enthusiasm

there will be nothing
you can't succeed
you can't make it
always reach for it !!!

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147 Days

TAGGED by Mun Yew

This tag post is totally a waste of time !!!!
Mun Yew, I'm "glad" you tagged me !!! :P

1. What is the relationship of you and her/him?
previous college mate

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?

don't really know him that well yet :P

3. The most memorable things she/he had done for you.

nothing....
his blog post really provided sufficient info to increase my knowledge

4. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.

"can giv me ur no.? i will text u if i'm coming"
(remember this sentence???)

5. If she/he become your lover, you will..

i'm already owned so it won't be true

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will...

there is no "enemy" this word in tomoko's dictionary... haha...

7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on..

no comments

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is...

no comments

9. The most desirable thing to do on her/him is?

tag him back for this ridiculous tags' questions...

10. The overall impression of her/him is..

quiet ??? don't really know how to comment

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?

hmmm... this one up to people who knows me to comment about it

12. The character of you for yourself is?

quiet

13. What do you hate about yourself?

can't get into people's conversation

14. The most ideal person that you want to be is?

other people is happy, i will try to be happy too...

15. For the people who care about you and like you, say something to them

i will always miss them and love them...

Ten people to tag:

1. maryann
2. nesh aran
3. satish
4. raymond
5. esther
6. carrotz
7. kylie0417
8. shaker ali
9. nelz
10. pek

Who is no.2 having a relationship with?

no idea

No.3 a male or a female?

male

If no.7 and no.10 were together, would it be a good thing?

of course, because they are high school mates and friends

How about no.5 and 8?

totally impossible !!!

What is no.1 studying about?

degree's foundation

Is no.4 single?

i guess so..

Say something about no.6.

one of the victim of this tag and friends to be kept in touch with


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144 Days

Almost Involved in An Accident

i almost had an accident this evening
i was driving my aunt's car (Honda City)
was preparing to turned out from a junction

a black Toyota Harier at the same time
turned into the junction that im turning out from
in the end i managed to prevent myself
from knocking the harier
but my aunt's car so as the opposite party's
car was been scratched
it's all because of the harier's fault

im glad that my aunt didn't blamed me
the scratches of paint could be washed off
at that time i was kinda emotion
my aunt was too...

it's been the first time
i just let my emotions taken place of my driving skills
don't wana mention the past
or the future

just an advice to everybody
drive cautiously to your destination

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143 Days

Disney Movie - Camp Rock

First of all, I would like to wish all Muslims
Selamat Hari Raya


********************************************************************************

I've been influenced by my cousins to watch this movie recently

I proudly present you
CAMP ROCK


Starring Platinum-certified Hollywood Records recording artists and Top 40 and Radio Disney hit-makers Jonas Brothers (Joe, Kevin and Nick)
and
singer/songwriter/actress Demi Lovato (of Disney Channel's "As the Bell Rings")
"Camp Rock" is the story of a talented yet unsure teen who yearns to share her songs with the world, and of a tempestuous young superstar who's lost his passion for music is sent packing by his band mates.
Together, at a camp for aspiring young music artists, they learn to believe in themselves and to value the freedom to be who they really want to be.


For more details, log onto :
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Camp_Rock

To listen to the soundtracks of the whole movie,
scroll down till the end
you'll see the imeem player
click on your favourite soundtracks


For myself, I can't stay away from listening to this particular soundtrack
Sing along with the given lyrics



This is Me
Lyrics by : Demi Lovato
i've always been the kind of girl
that hid my face
so afraid to tell the world
what i've got to say
but i have this dream
right inside of me
i'm gonna let it show, it's time
to let you know

this is real, this is me
i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be, now
gonna let the light, shine on me
now i've found, who i am
there's no way to hold it in
no more hiding who i want to be
this is me

do you know what it's like
to feel so in the dark
to dream about a life
where you're the shining star
even though it seems
like it's too far away
i have to believe in myself
it's the only way

this is real, this is me
i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be, now
gonna let the light, shine on me
now i've found, who i am
there's no way to hold it in
no more hiding who i want to be
this is me

you're the voice i hear inside my head
the reason that i'm singing
i need to find you, i gotta find you
you're the missing piece i need
the song inside of me
i need to find you, i gotta find you

this is real, this is me
i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be, now
gonna let the light, shine on me

there's no way to hold it in
no more hiding who i want to be
this is me
this is me
now i've found, who i am
there's no way to hold it in
no more hiding who i want to be
this is me


Just like what it is stated in the lyrics
"you're the voice i hear inside my head
the reason that i'm singing"
the rhythm and the lyrics of this song really
kept on repeating in my mind
there is where i came out with the feelings
of writing my own lyrics
to express my own feelings


This is Love
Lyrics by : tomoko
I've always been this kind person
that love's nothing
so afraid to face the fact
what i've got to do
but i have this life
right inside my mind
i'm gonna face it now, it's time
to face the truth

this is truth, this is love
i'm exactly enjoy supposed to be, now
gonna let myself, face the love
now i've get, love from him
there's no way to give it up
no more hiding feelings towards him
this is love

am i hurting myself
to accept this approached
to dream about the love
where i'm the suffer one
even though it is
like it's too far away
i have to believe in myself
isn't one way love

this is truth, this is love
i'm exactly enjoy supposed to be, now
gonna let myself, face the love
now i've get, love from him
there's no way to give it up
no more hiding feelings towards him
this is love

you're the one i love inside my heart
the reason that i'm writing
i need to help you, i gotta love you
you're the only guy i had
the first feelings from you
i need to help you, i gotta love you

this is truth, this is love
i'm exactly enjoy supposed to be, now
gonna let myself, face the love

there's no way to give it up
no more hiding feelings towards him
this is love
this is love
now i've get, love from him


This lyrics is meant for the particular person
who is reading it
having the same feelings as i have
if you understand it
I hope it doesn't meant our love and relationship
just to be like that
take care, i'm always there for you

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143 Days